Everywhere we look right now we are being shown messages that the holiday season is the greatest time of the year. From early November until January the topic of conversation is often what you plan to do for the holidays or what you did for them. People expect that you’ll answer with the same amount of zest and merriment as what you see in the weekly Target catalogs coming in the mail. But, that’s not how everyone feels about this time of year. For many, this time of year brings great sadness. Maybe it’s the first holiday without a loved one or a change in the family dynamic since last year. Maybe it’s the tenth holiday without a loved one and the pressure to feel like you should be “over it
I’ll never forget how I felt as I was driving to the first day of my yoga teacher training program. It was a combination of fear, nervousness, and apprehension. I wondered why I was doing it. I kept thinking; I don’t look like a yogi, I’m not strong enough, I don’t know what I’m doing, I should be going home to my kids, who am I kidding? But my heart kept telling me I was doing the right thing. I had felt a call to learn more about yoga and although the timing didn’t seem ideal (I had a 1 year old at the time) I couldn’t shake the feeling that now was when I needed to take the leap. In retrospect I can see that it put me on a trajectory to be exactly where I am today, living my life’s dharma
